This is my first Blog after coming to US. I have felt like pouring my thoughts in the blog several times. But somehow i lose focus and give up.. lets see how far i can go this time ..:)
Today is 21 october 2007 .. sunday and its vijayadasmi.. today morning there was vijayadasmi pooje in one of VMS members house. everyone attended but i could not go ..


morning i got to chat with shubha for a very long time.. about friends, hobbies and marriage. I see her doing the same mistake as i did and since she expressed her thoughts to me i took the liberty to tell her not to settle down(especially) in friendships cos sooner or later, intentionally or unintentionally friends do part with us. so its important to make it a habit to question what if we do not have this person around us or not have this comfort? and see if we can answer these questions. .. and have an idea that we eventually we will lose everything and its better to be prepared for a change.. because change is the only thing that is constant in this life.


when we were chatting about marriage..she asked me if anyone had proposed me .. it was soo funny.. cos nobody has proposed to me so far .. lol ... i wonder why :))D .. even now i cant stop grinning and giggling .. its strange.. but its true .. cos either my male colleagues were married or were younger to me .. how boring na... These days my silence is kind of freaking me out .. its bcos from past three weeks .. everyday ..3/4th of a day I'm alone. I don't speak with myself also!!! like how appa or ravi used to keep muttering something to themselves when they are alone .. After going through so many traumatic feelings and silently suffering for more than 10 years my health and body has started to given up on me.. now I'm a full time asthma patient.. i remember my father ,chikkamma, ranganna mama and murali mama.. that's pretty much half the family !.. i sud be thankful to god for keeping me non asthmatic at least till now.. I feel like calling my mother and telling her how difficult it is for me to breathe .. but cant hear her sob over the phone .. Surabi came just now and peeked into the full size mirror to see her outfit is wearable and likable to school....there is something very appealing about her... but her tantrums in gods room are not tolerable...she is a such a cute, sweet happy child...